Monday, July 23, 2007
so i was studying in the canteen with a super smart girl who's from the SMARTEST class today. and i told her about the STATE of my class. and can i say that i was utterly mortified at the stark contrast. very very embarassing stuff. these people/geniuses from her class cry when they get A2 for chemistry and 71/80 for emath paper 1. what about my class? i'll go out on a limb and say most of us are happy to pass chemistry or something. well, we waste our free periods away talking about whose condom fell out of whose wallet. what do you expect?this is really disturbing. why is there no sense of urgency in 4M? im more than sick of how our teachers compare 4M to the other classes, whether subtly or outrightly.they keep telling us who and who is catching up, 4M buck up. all that shizz. seriously, how much more pep talks do we need to get off our butts and get productive? we have to realise that reading our textbooks and memorising isnt enough. some people don't even know why barium sulphate and silver nitrate won't react. at the rate we're going, i'm sure more than half of 4M won't even make it to a poly.
there really is an obvious different between the so-called 'smart' class and 'not-so-smart' class. (being tactful). it doesnt sound nice, but laying out the cards like this helps sometimes. take prelim orals for example. the girls from the 'smart' class actually brought their little help books to practice. and to be honest, they arent exactly the ones who really need help. and what were we doing? well, we were convincing ourselves that bitching is a form of practicing for oral. well, some at least. but we definitely werent practicing. okay maybe huimin and liying practiced. but you know what i mean.
haiya, i sound like some condescending little mummy bitch. but it's time to wake up. if you're getting 20s for midyears and still reading harry potter or watching one tree hill, you needa start wondering what the hell you're doing. unless you're genius smart, you're probably not going to wherever you wanna go for college.
shoot me, but i feel that finishing an amath paper a day isn't smth to be proud of. you're supposed to do that and more. to make you feel even worse, the whole of 4D (with the exception of one girl apparently) has finished the orange booklet (the one with 6papers if you're completely ignorant if its existence). so it might be good to start there.
prelims are in a frightening
21days time. and O's are, in approximately 3months. i know it's hard to self-motivate. but you could try picturing your midyr results as your prelim results . or worse, your o level results. try picturing your parents' expression when they see it. or maybe someone who matters to you. then you'll hate yourself for being so stupid. for wasting your last month(s) away playing and doing nothing basically when you could have been TRYING to do something. Imagine yourself in a shitty JC with chinese-speaking ahbengs and ahlians. that might help abit.
i don't really know how to express my frustration at this situation. but i'm sure deep inside, you know what i mean. maybe it's time to do something abt it.
ahhhh okay.
i'm just feeling so annoyed with the slowwwww pace my class is prodding by now. it's so freaking close to prelims! actually, i don't even know if there is a pace at all. and i'm stressed out! the more i do, the more i feel i still got loads more to cover. i don't feel relieved when im taking a break. it's not good. i feel sorta guilty for sleeping sometimes. SORT OF. but yeah. thats my consequence for honeymooning my 3yrs of secondary school away.
argh. need to be smarter.
need to bathe.
yeni posted at 8:14 PM â¢
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