Sunday, April 08, 2007
till this day, it still BUGS me.
i was in Thailand for a mission trip. (hoho!)
and we were supposed to go onstage to sing two songs.
the stage was quite big.
but the thing is, the lights were very low.
and you know how flying things always buzzes around the lights.
yeah.
i went onstage and my heart stopped.
you know how i'm "
seemingly fearless" and all "garang' and all that jazz.
but a bug reduces me to a, nothingness.
really. it's embarassing.
the floor of the stage
ladden with
bugs of all sorts, in all conditions.
dead,
alive, a few legs
missing,
flying,
crawling,
spotted,
translucent,
winged,
shelled and whatnot.
i took a deep breath and convinced myself that this isnt the time to be a girl about it.
so i went onstage and had the "honours" of being in the front row, perks of being my height you see.
and you know how there are lights at the front of the stage.
i was beside it. and there were
grasshoppers, spiders,
huge ant-sy thigies,
beetles, and many others i cant identify.
and much to me disgust, most of the insects there had relatively bad eyesight.
seeing as they kept
flying into me, yeah, they had to be pretty damn blind.
and it didn't help that i was standing in the front and had to maintain a cool composure and not wiggle around. and not screaming was already, very much of a huge effort.
so we started singing.
i could
feel bugs,
see bugs,
hear bugs. thank god i couldnt taste them.
they kept flying into my face and
crawling on my neck. it was so traumatizing. and i couldn't swipe them off cos it was disrespectful to the thais, sorta. thank god for the kind soul behide me who discreetly
picked the bugs off my neck and HAIR. gasp!.
and you know, i really was singing despite the fact that i felt like i was in an episode of
Fear Factor. i was smiling like i should and trying to maintain eye contact with some of the audience. then suddenly, smth caught my eye. i looked down and i saw this thing that looked like a corss between a grasshopper and a stick-insect on my hip.
it's eye were staring straight at me, feelers wiggling back and forth.
it took all of me not to cry.i have no idea what on earth possessed me what to do next and how i did it. seeing as how i exterminate insects now ( i refuse to touch it, i don't even pick it up with a tissue. i just smack it with a slipper or smth thick so i don't have to touch it at all and leave it there and seduce someone into ridding it for me), i don't know how i managed to swipe off the thing with my
bare hands. and away it flew, onto the thigh of the person beside. and i swear, guilt consumed me when i saw his reaction.
when i got off stage, i NEEDED to go to the toilet urgently, to wash my face and hands and wash up basically. and i am ashamed to admit, but i really wanted to cry. but even more shamefaced, i feel pretty damn proud of myself for going through that without crying! *beams
that night, when i undressed for bath, i combed
2 bugs outta my hair,
2 in my sleeves(i folded my sleeves up cos it was too long, and
3 in my sports bra (what lecherous bugs yeh? and lucky too i'd add.
dying in my bosoms. hah!). now you see the extent of it huh.
till this day, when i think back. i still feel shivers running down my spine. and my neck gets all itchy and i get all paranoid that there are bugs on my neck.
i am
fully aware how
dreadfully, sickeningly bimbotic i sound in this post. but hell, i am terrified of bugs. i know the thing about bugs being smaller than humans and all that jazz, but still!
and i promise, this story is based on the very true experience and that im
not being dramatic in any way whatsoever. you can ask lini!
i have not exaggerated, dramatised or embellished any facts in any way.
so you know why i hate bugs.
and nah, yeni ain't fearless.
never was, never will be.
it's just the damn bugs la.
arg!
anyway, this is the very
entertaining( h a h a h a !) and
hair-raising(you betcha!) bug story i promised..
and i promise,
something serious soon.
with that,
goodnight sweetums :)
yeni posted at 12:25 AM â¢
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