Tuesday, February 27, 2007
case 1:
i'm reading this book. there's this character called lisa in it.
she works for this real snazzy glamourous magazine in new york. now she knows she's naturally a pretty attractive girl, but she puts pride in looking stunningly fabulous. she's forced too. her environment pressurizes her to. her close friends include her personal assistants, and her one persistant admirer since young, whom she detests and finds clingy. to look good, she gets up hours earlier to apply layer after layer of fake tan. to do her coats of nail and toe varnish. and also her supposedly natural-looking layers makeup in which she hides behind. she takes pride in being the sarcastic sharp bitch of the company, and refrains from having personal relationships with anyone in the office to prevent backstabbing. she makes sure she drinks 16 cups of water a day. and has been constantly hungry in the past ten years since she started working for the magazine 10 years ago. she has been hungry so often, it's now become negligible. she hasn't eaten white bread nor rice in the past 8 years. also, she doesn't allow herself indulgences. no chocolates, no wine, nothing sweet. not even when she's feeling upset. "no point piling up 1000 extra calories just because i feel lousy now, and still feel lousier about myself after that" she reasons with herself ever so often. she hasn't been able to have a decent conversationn with her parents in abt 15years. now so especially when she visits her, more than humble abode. she wears her jimmy choos and carries her prada and sprays her chanel, just so she has an armour. an armour of brands to stop her from "sinking" back into her "past life", her family and home. all these just so she has her high-paying job and glamourous life style. all these just so she can travel the world and buy things without looking at the pricetag nor batting an eyelid when she buys a handbag which cost an obscene 6figure sum. all these to get free designer makeup and shoe samples, even if the pretty size 4 shoes don't fit her size 5s. but pain is a small negligible factor she says. she travels the world, gets free yves saint laurent and louis vuitton, wears jimmy choos, goes shopping as and when she feels like and can proud tell people she's the fashion director of Femme Magazine.and mind you, she's not educated. didn't even bother completing highschool she.strangely, i like her character.and i have an unsually strong admiration for her.she's strong and independent.and something about her strikes me.maybe, just maybe.i don't even mind being her.case 2:
during chapel on monday, pastor wendy was telling us about this chinese movie she watched. this little girl, she was poor and her mother was dying. she stole a piece of cake/bread from this boy and ran and ran while her chased and chased. she ran to a river where there was a bridge and so she ran some more. then she fell and dropped the cake into the river. all of a sudden, rising from the water was the Goddess of Destiny, holding in her hands none other than that piece of cake/bread. and the Goddess gave her two choices:
1. leave teh cake and go home empty-handed to her dying mother,. but having a clear conscience.
2. tranforming her into a princess with all the riches int he world. but on the condition that all the people ard her that she loves, will die.
she chose riches.and the whole congregation gasped.i was still asking myself which i would choose.case 3:
julian asked me:
love or wealth?
i said "i duno. but love isn't everything."
which is still, technically true.
love doesn't feed you does it?
and all along, i thought i was a true romantic.
inside?
really deep DEEP inside if so.
hahaha
mmhm.
all these incidents has made me truly ask myself if im a materialistic girl.
but i've realised, yes i am.
undeniably.
there, it was so hard admitting it.
i already feel a sense of release.
hah!
but yes, i am.
i want to be rich when i grow up.
i want to be able to shop whenever i want without batting an eyelid.
i want to buy mango, zara, topshop, esprit, miss sixty, fcuk, levis, coach, guess, chanel, jimmy choos all without feeling more than a lil pinch.
and i want to marry a rich husband.
painful but true.so therefore, yes,i am a material girl.truly a material girl.
yeni posted at 11:22 PM â¢
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