Wednesday, September 20, 2006
ahhh.
i know im not supp to be updating now.BUT.
aiya..
im feelin stressed up!
im in sch right now.lunch break.and then there's chem later on.
hmm.today was an o k a y day.quite happy with my chem and bio results.
13.5/15 for bio
9/10 for chem.
ha!be proud of me lini!
but as i sat down and attempted my emath paper,i felt so..lost.
the questions were so unlike those i did in tests.and i cant remember formulas,cant figure out sums,sometimes i cant even understand the darn question.
emath has always been my strongest sub.along with bio.i've nv scored below an A1 for emath.but its lik,i feel so clueless,helpless and stoooopid as i tried the sums.then i had this panic pre-examination stress attack.lik omgomgomg.that kinda thing.and the class was beyond annoyingly noisy.it was virtually impossible to concentrate.lik as i look as the numbers,i kinda start stoning and then the noise just keeps buzzing in my ear,and its becomes a sort of clattering and finally some sort of overwhelming banging.
absolutely unbearable.i think sth abt 3M is that we're unable to keep silent for even one miserable sodding minute.it has its pros and cons i guess.but,owell.
so anyway.i think im jus being nonsensical.all the exam pressure and all.its lik when i compare my results with people,no,genuises, frm the other classes,i feel so inadequate.
i've been cramming since a week before the sept hols,but it still feels lik time is against me!feel sorta jaded from all the numbers and words and formulas.even the satisfaction of solving a sum doesnt make up for my frustration and exasperation of the process anymore.
think those who've crammed before would understand and sympathise.ha..
but alright yeni.
no more wallowing in selfpity and stress!
its less than a month to the end of EOYs.
we can do it!=)
yes we can!=)
argh.sounds so sickeningly optimistic.then again.its supp to be good.but im lik wavering between.ah NVM.
time for chem.
yeni posted at 2:21 PM â¢
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