Sunday, September 24, 2006
I DISSECTED A HEART WITH MY BARE HANDS!haha.alright fine.a PIG's heart.but a heart nonetheless.it was pretty cool actually.pammy and i paired up and we started weaving our fingers through the ventricles and arteries and veins and whatnot.haha.i stuck the hose in and water squirted out from another opening.haha.hilarious.the initial tentativeness wore off after awhile and we started exploring and all.and ours was a healthy pig ok!hardly and blood clots nor fats.so we din have to perform liposuction lik most of the other groups did.haha.
and i really learnt alot from that bio prac.(thanks pig-o.)as in,the heart aint some foreign thing in my body that has 4chambers and all anymore.it isnt jus all text no more.feel some sort of..enlightenment.haha.corny,i know.
i received an unexpected gift today.really shldnt have opened it.now i've wasted one whole day being unproductive.
as i read,rediscovered,revisited and felt our memories,it was as though it opened a floodgate of emotions.lik a wave of some invisible force,overwhelming me.i wanted to bad to scream out "i'm not like that!not anymore!stop talking like this!".but i couldn't.it was as though a giant muffler was upon me,stifling me,putting immense pressure on me,cutting me off.sometimes,mistakes once commited cannot be undone,cannot be forgotten.im sorry.i never knew.i wish that one day,all this animosity could be buried.that maybe 10years down the road,we might be sitting in a chic coffee house without awkwardness nor embarrassment and jus catch up.i wish..now that you're goin away,i feel a concoction of nostalgia and relief.it pains me to know how much it hurt for you before.it pains me to realise how well you knew me.it pains me to remember how wrong,how selfish,how immature i was.im sorry.all the best in your future endeavours.you're a smart person.i know you are.i have faith in you.=)
yeni posted at 1:36 AM â¢
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